Thanksgiving Trip to LA & MS 2008

We drove in to spend Thanksgiving with our families. We spent Thanksgiving Day with my family and then Friday with Michael's family. Everyone got to spend a good bit of time with Phoebe. There were many kids that were around for Thanksgiving by Angel's.. so Phoebe had lots of kids to play with, there were 2 huge spacewalks outside that they spent most of the day and night jumping around in. And then she had a blast riding the 4 wheeler (aka motorbike) with PawPaw, chasing MawMaw around the house, making glitter ornaments with Mommy and MawMaw, petting the deer (Christmas decorations) on the lawn all day and then getting scared when they lit up at night! MawMaw Tess and PawPaw Mike had a cake and gifts ready Friday to celebrate my birthday, Phoebe's, Mikey's and CP's!

She loved their yard, riding in the wagon with the pig, riding the 4 wheeler with PawPaw, picking up leaves to make a stew with MawMaw... she had a good time.

Here she is putting PawPaw to work:






And PawPaw put her to work (picking up leaves)!


It was a full and fun couple of days. We headed back early Saturday and made it home Saturday night (tonight). Once we got home Michael took down the Christmas decorations from the attic and I attempted to get started. But I think the drive had worn me out because for the first time ever, I wasn't in a festive mood. I know that will change as soon as I get up tomorrow though, I think I'm just worn out! That being said, I think I'm going to bed! Good nite :)

Missing my China Girl

Missing my China Girl
Current mood:sad

Well it's been a little over 4 months since we said goodbye to China. And I must say, it hasn't begun to get easier. Whenever I think or write about her, I get upset. That being said, I push the thoughts from my mind pretty often. Then I feel guilty for not thinking of her. What am I supposed to do? I know that I should let it out and allow myself to heal but it hurts. She was my baby, so sweet, loyal, loving. We had a picture of her blown up to a 30x40 and placed her right next to our family picture which is the same size. It turned out beautiful but I can't look at it very often.

I just needed to let that out, I really haven't talked about it since she passed.